Missing You

Today was hard for me. Some idiot made fun of my voice and it just made me think of Vikki. She wouldn't have done that. She thinks my voice is sexy. I just missed her a lot today. I've been praying every night that she's happy, well looked after and finds someone for her, even if it isn't me. This just proves that I wear a mask with everyone, even God. What I really want to ask him is to send her back to me so I can love her and she can love me like we have been. To fix out the problems and give us a happy life together. But that'd be selfish. 

And so, even with his Almighty I wear a mask. Whether he can see past it or not, I don't know. All I know is that I feel lost without Vikki and you are are probably getting bored shitless listening to me pine on like some lost puppy. I dunno, I guess strangely, I made this blog just for me, to help through times when I need it. Hopefully it'll help someone out there eventually, most likely what not to do.